How I Struggle With Exams

...especially when I'm about to face PMR. heh heh... huhh

The guideline is clear and I'm pretty sure everyone knows this:

• Doa
• Usaha
• Tawakal

Sekarang just kena buat sungguh-sungguh la. Doa sungguh-sungguh. Usaha bersungguh-sungguh. Tawakal pun kena bersungguh-sungguh.

I'm serious about tawakal, kalau tak bersungguh-sungguh, you'll be disappointed as hell (been there, done that). And tawakal as in, the whole thing, from the grade till the number. From the start till... forever.

Letak dalam hati yang, tu apa yang Allah nak kasi. Means tu yang the best for you.

Aku bukan jenis orang yang compare kertas aku dengan orang lain, which is excellent actually. Tapi aku tau yang kadang-kadang memang some people can't help themselves and it is okay. As long as kau boleh tahan the pressure and memang kau dah biasa dengan benda ni then, why not?

Dengki yang boleh dalam Islam, one of them is dalam belajar.

And aku tak de sesiapa pun nak prove pasal achievement aku, no one really expect me anything, family ke, cikgu ke, kawan ke. Sure, ada family tapi diorang jenis, 'you did your best, I'm proud of you'. And I am really grateful for that, Alhamdulillah. No pressure added.

So, mostly apa aku buat ni memang to prove myself, no one else. What I can do. So, if there's any disappointment, I'll only disappoint myself, doesn't involve others. That's what I want.

And I know my limit. I know which subject I can get 90 and which subject I don't. And I know myself to not target too high. So I set the target clearly.

Aku tau yang sometimes orang cakap "80? Cukup-cukup makan je... baik aku dapat B" or something like that. Tapi untuk aku, dapat 80 for the killer bapak-kau punya subject, dah nak melompat macam orang gila, nak terjun bangunan hidup balik, nak menangis air mata darah blabla.. Serius ni, I'm sooo grateful. Alhamdulillah.

So kat sekolah aku tak react, balik-balik rumah masuk bilik WAAAAARRRGGGGHHH LALAL ELELE

However, bagi orang yang target nak dapat A+ tu... aku tabik toink toink la kat lu, brader. You're brave, you're ready to take risks. Macam domino effect la kan, kalau nak dapat markah high, automatik work hard tu memang hundred times more.

Cuma aku yang tak dapat tahan that pressure... So yes, I honestly think you're brave.

So my advice, apa apa pun kau dapat, tell these to yourself:

1. Alhamdulillah
2. Bro, you deserve it. Love ya man...
3. Kau boleh buat better, der. I believe in you.
4. and if you don't, that's absolutely the best you can get and YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOURSELF.

The advantage in my part is that, I only got myself to prove, none other and I'm too lazy-ass to compare myself to others. So, apa-apa yang aku dapat buat aku happy.

So find your own advantage and use that. Use that to the fullest. Use that to make you happy.

Don't let this dunia exam buat kau unhappy. Yang kat akhirat tu, THAT'S the exam. Now that one, you have to be prepared.