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How I Struggle With Exams

...especially when I'm about to face PMR. heh heh... huhh

The guideline is clear and I'm pretty sure everyone knows this:

• Doa
• Usaha
• Tawakal

Sekarang just kena buat sungguh-sungguh la. Doa sungguh-sungguh. Usaha bersungguh-sungguh. Tawakal pun kena bersungguh-sungguh.

I'm serious about tawakal, kalau tak bersungguh-sungguh, you'll be disappointed as hell (been there, done that). And tawakal as in, the whole thing, from the grade till the number. From the start till... forever.

Letak dalam hati yang, tu apa yang Allah nak kasi. Means tu yang the best for you.

Aku bukan jenis orang yang compare kertas aku dengan orang lain, which is excellent actually. Tapi aku tau yang kadang-kadang memang some people can't help themselves and it is okay. As long as kau boleh tahan the pressure and memang kau dah biasa dengan benda ni then, why not?

Dengki yang boleh dalam Islam, one of them is dalam belajar.

And aku tak de sesiapa pun nak prove pasal achievement aku, no one really expect me anything, family ke, cikgu ke, kawan ke. Sure, ada family tapi diorang jenis, 'you did your best, I'm proud of you'. And I am really grateful for that, Alhamdulillah. No pressure added.

So, mostly apa aku buat ni memang to prove myself, no one else. What I can do. So, if there's any disappointment, I'll only disappoint myself, doesn't involve others. That's what I want.

And I know my limit. I know which subject I can get 90 and which subject I don't. And I know myself to not target too high. So I set the target clearly.

Aku tau yang sometimes orang cakap "80? Cukup-cukup makan je... baik aku dapat B" or something like that. Tapi untuk aku, dapat 80 for the killer bapak-kau punya subject, dah nak melompat macam orang gila, nak terjun bangunan hidup balik, nak menangis air mata darah blabla.. Serius ni, I'm sooo grateful. Alhamdulillah.

So kat sekolah aku tak react, balik-balik rumah masuk bilik WAAAAARRRGGGGHHH LALAL ELELE

However, bagi orang yang target nak dapat A+ tu... aku tabik toink toink la kat lu, brader. You're brave, you're ready to take risks. Macam domino effect la kan, kalau nak dapat markah high, automatik work hard tu memang hundred times more.

Cuma aku yang tak dapat tahan that pressure... So yes, I honestly think you're brave.

So my advice, apa apa pun kau dapat, tell these to yourself:

1. Alhamdulillah
2. Bro, you deserve it. Love ya man...
3. Kau boleh buat better, der. I believe in you.
4. and if you don't, that's absolutely the best you can get and YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOURSELF.

The advantage in my part is that, I only got myself to prove, none other and I'm too lazy-ass to compare myself to others. So, apa-apa yang aku dapat buat aku happy.

So find your own advantage and use that. Use that to the fullest. Use that to make you happy.

Don't let this dunia exam buat kau unhappy. Yang kat akhirat tu, THAT'S the exam. Now that one, you have to be prepared.

Heroes Never Die

I’m not a soldier

I’m not a warrior

Though in my heart,

ignites a spirit of a fighter

Fear not sons, fear not daughters

Your will and hope are never a bother

For you I pray

Till the faithful day

May the raging nights fade away

And the hope shines bright from the darkest grey

With a smile upon the sunshine’s ray

Your sacrifices are in our souls

Your stories will soon be told

As a hero who is brave and bold

For it will last till I’m senile and old

Heroes never die

Heroes never cry

Heroes are remembered by you and I

This is dedicated to the Lahad Datu's warriors.

And also to the Palestine fighters. 

There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
And it will be just like you were never gone

Can I tell how much I love this line from If You Ever Come Back by The Script?
..speechless.

Accept my forgiveness
'Cause I never meant what I said
Remember all the fearless stuff
The time when we burst all the water and the lights were dead
Accept my forgiveness
'Cause I really really want you to stay
Oh, I really want you to stay

Daylight

 Daylight, Maroon 5

And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close
Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own
But tonight I need to hold you so close

It gives me the sense, the vibe of humanity

soothing.

how 'well' my dream became